How do you know if you are truly lost, or if you are actually finding yourself? My life is almost the complete opposite of what it was only 2 years ago. Basically my plans and dreams were leading me in one direction, then I find out it’s a dead-end. Ok...back to square one.
During my transition of leaving my marriage, my job was a welcomed pillar of stability. However, as of last month...I am unemployed. Down goes that last pillar. Now what? And that really is the big question. Now what? I have no idea. What do I want to do? I have no idea.
But...I figure, everything has pretty much fallen apart, so instead of jumping back into the ring, why not take a step back, and find out what I actually enjoy. I could go back into an office job...that does offer a measure of stability; or I can find a way to make money at something that brings a bit of light and joy to my life. I want a sense of contentment and peace, and I have to discover where I will find that. Do you love what you do? Do you do what you love? Is that a rarity? I hope not.
If I could earn a living being an artist...I would. It’s something I may explore. I guess that’s it...I want to explore. I want to find out what makes me happy and find a way to make a living at it! Naturally this is my optimistic, head-cheerleader attitude, which is bound to falter when I have no money...but I’m here now!
So...am I lost, or am I going to find myself? I have no idea.
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